Letter To Upcoming Mothers, Episode 6.

Letter To Upcoming Mothers 6

 After explaining my ordeals to my Boss, she encouraged me not to give up. She promised to stand by me always.

Few days later, I started feeling some changes in my body system and decided to visit the hospital for a check up. The result of my test shows that I was two weeks gone. 

That was all I remembered and found myself lying down on the hospital bed with drips on my hand. Tears rolled down my face as I could not help myself than to shed tears. 

I was asked to pay my bills but I had no one to call. Alas, I called my Boss, to help me out which she did. I was discharged three days later and I was registered for antinatal alongside the Doctor gave me some prescription both for myself and my foetus. 

Despite how touching the Doctor's words were, I already made up my mind to abort the pregnancy because it's a shame and I'm pretty sure my "good samaritan" will never accept the child.

I was at home all through the week and my so called "good samaritan" did not call to check up on me. This caused me lots of pain, I could not even go to work for days and when I eventually went to work, my sack letter was prepared to be given to me.

I wept as I collected the letter and pleaded but unfortunately, it was abortive. Things became hard after I lost my job and I had no savings. What I was particular about is how to look for a prefect Hospital that can help me, in aborting the pregnancy. 

My Boss is indeed a mother. She encouraged me to keep the pregnancy and stood by me. Inside of me, I already planned to abort the pregnancy as soon as I am finacially stable. She invited me to her church one Sunday which I accepted the offer as I had no church, I don't know who Christ is, I just bear a Christian name. 

My heart was heavy with tears at the cause of the service because everything the Minister said is just been directed, to me. The Ministration opened my understanding that I have really missed it, in the journey of life but it gave me hope that I can start from point zero, in making it to be an hero. 

But the question is, can God save a useless being, like myself? Oh! Yes! He can. No matter how totally messed up you are, no matter how shameful your lifestyle is, my dear readers, the goodnews is that, you can be save. 

Oh, you think your life is messed up, you think there is no hope for you to be better or you think life has ended because of what you are passing through?   Congratulations, Jesus has paid the price! The only thing you need is to surrender to Him and let Him take charge and rule your life. 

The Minister concluded his message by asking if anyone who like to surrender his or her totality to Christ. I let everything to the cross at last. I met with JESUS! He welcomed and embraced me, not think of how filthy I am, He showed me love and I was relieved in mind but there was an obstruction and something I still have in me that's troubling me.

The decision never to forgive everyone who has crossed my path and offended me. It's not easy to forgo, with all I have passed through in life. I spoke with my Boss about it, she advised that I forgive and let go, which I eventually did.

I decided to visit my "good samaritan" one day to preach the goodnews to him but I met the unexpected. Mind you, I still have the pregnancy in me.

To be continued.....

©️ Joy, Adebimpe Bepo.

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